another better side to be reveal,yet

it's been nearly 3 years ever since my very 1st post,

time flies,

so fast like you have never been through it,

happy & sad,

everything passed by like a roller coaster,

how i wish it can just like a marry-go-round ride,

so slowly & gentle,

savor every moment peacefully.

dream on yea..

over years,

despite on the down side,

i did proudly gain myself become better,

the childish showcasing style,

should really throw away,

the disappointing,

the broken, the pain & the healing thing,

i got real tired over it,

forgiveness is the 1st step of moving on,

trying to dump it into the trash bin, i shall..

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we are all grown up

the inspiration of today post was from a friend,

this thought went to me,

when i was browsing her blog.

this is the time we should grow up & learn to move on,

shouldn't let the unnecessary or any unwanted stuff dragging us,

it's all in your mind,

we create the problem, trouble & stress to yourself,

usually it drag the others around you as well,

if you don't choose to look it further,

how are you suppose to expect something from the others?

aren't we should start to pick up ourself 1st,

instead of blaming & swinging with the emotional?

shouldn't always lock yourself into your own thoughts,

despite of the unpleasant past,

but that is already the past tense,

the ending of the story have already stop there for a while.

should open to more choices & opportunities,

locking in your little world,

can never make you move,

instead it will only creating more hatred & blame,

upon anything that stuck in yourself,

or else, everything will back to square 1 & never change a step.

shouldn't because you been hurt once & live like dying,

i believe,

as long as you choose to live, theres always hope,

you don't see it now, does it mean you wouldn't find it in future?

living a life like a zombies,

treating your body like trash,

letting your soul un-love,

do you think thats a god creation?

you don't choose to give a chance for the sake of responsible of your own life,

does there is any ground to hope from others?

of cause,

that's just my own thinking,

i have no rights into telling you what you should do or not,

and i wasn't in any good shape to ask you to move too,

at least, i'm trying & moving.

we already grown up,

time is ticking,

time change everything,

you can't stand by there & being hopeless,

though the ending brings you so much unpleasant,

if you need a friend, i will still be there.

At time like this

i wanna tell you something,

i wanna give you something,

i wouldn't wait till it's too late,

i really afraid regretting later.

if only one have the courage to break through it,

take out the courage to try & change,

a try often take a big & heavy step,

to change is almost reached the ultimate zone,

hardly we would feel excellent & comfortable,

when your foot is in a new environment?

it's never be easy.

we always carry a mind,

what if i'm wrong?

what if i fail?

your mind, your thoughts have been bombarded by fear,

probably, ego & pride.

if only one have the courage to fail,

aren't we always learn best from the hard way?

if a try could make a huge different, aren't it worth for a fail?

fall a few times, so what?

learn from where you fall,

at least you try & live no regrets.

sometimes,

the simplest words you say can make a big change in the end,

or maybe,

it would be another beginning.

but often your thoughts that bend you down,

and there the story ends forever.

worth it?

it is you that make it worth while

Youth does not last,

time does not wait,
clocks ticking,

every second, every minutes, every hours,

before you could realize it,

it already pass you by,

and you are just left behind,

far behind alone.

you cannot reverse what you have lost,

future is yet to come & discover,

although, not everything in life are spoon feeding,

i learned it from the hard way, as usual,

you gotta fall, pick yourself up again & continue the walk.

i blamed,

i complain,

despite having so much time in thinking about those,

aren't i just wasted more time,

whereas i could do so much better.

at least, i try, isn't it?

i promise myself i have to treat myself better,

not like my life are now in terrible mess,

i always be faithful to what i have,

imagine somebody out there,

don't even have enough to wear & eat,

aren't they have much more to blame,

i think they don't even bother about what is emo, lonely,

keeping yourself alive,

there is always hope.

life is much more meaningful than staying in emo break down.

while us, having too much & yet still not enough.

we.. can't & shouldn't complain so much,

every word you blame,

think of someone else.

eventually, you will find some peace. i hope.

even the world going to collapse,

even if my every nightmare turn out to reality,

i still have myself to be strong,

at least i still live a life that i want to be,

and not just for the sake of someone else.

even in lifetime,

i fall, i got hurt, i bleed,

it never be fair,

but, i wouldn't give up,

future are in our hand,

the light is yet to shine.

dare to dream, dare to do,

life got no take 2,

just strike it all.

i still remember.

tomorrow will be a new day,

i will put a smile.

Paranoid me

i think i'm just over reacted,

thinking way far beyond,

worried over some tiny little matter,

i can't help it,

that's me, Pearly Tan.

Today my precious,

seem great, eat, shit, sleep well,

manage to whack the whole bowl of boiled veggies,

no sight of discomfort at all,

and, i felt so much relieved.

this little devil,

completes me,

almost replace everything of mine,

i really love her,

so do my family,

we always treat her as human & not dog,

like a goddess child in da house.

and i know,

some how this is bad,

not about the over pampered issue,

we do discipline her & correct her naughty behavior.

the thing is,

she can't stay with me forever,

as you know, dog life is short,

there will be a day she will gone before me,

and, i just can't bear with the thoughts,

it frighten me,

that's the fact that i wish is never be true,

seeing her growing so fast,

deep in me,

i felt really reluctant,

it's like having a dilemma feeling.

wanting her to grow up happily & enjoy her life,

on the other hand,

this is the sign of she is aging.

now, she is 7months old,

a few more months later till she turns adult.

fearful enough.

see, i'm paranoid,

i shall just ignore those nonsense, right?

at least i will stop seeing her with a pity look,

that always keep me or maybe feeling depress,

i shall just cherish every moment i have with her,

and make her life fulfilled with all my love & care.

Precious,

please be healthy.